sometimes a challenge

sometimes it is more than a question, sometimes, it is a more than lament, sometimes, it is a challenge...

i don't expect anyone to understand... but it would be nice if someone did...

sometimes

sometimes it feels personal and then, sometimes it feels ridiculous and sometimes it feels like a question and sometimes it feels bigger than me ... whatever it feels like, even when it does not feel good, the good news is it feels like something... the bad news is when it not longer feels like anything...

and when i forget

when i feel the poor me pity party who cares feeling coming on like a wet blanket not matter how logical and rational it seems in my mind and no matter how visceral and tangible the feeling feels and no matter how deep the pathetic sadness and loneliness gets, i must remember this and find my way out of the rabbit hole and back into the bigger picture, the altruistic universal eternal infinite full scope of the question this blog asks...

but still, sometimes, life feels so very lonely...

all i can so is sigh...